just me

i have had many people in my life have kids. obviously...it's natural. most of the time, my range of emotions when this was happening, was along the lines of pure excitement to a tinge of sadness. the sadness was me being selfish and knowing that my friendship with that person was about to change. not because i wanted it to, but because i knew that person well enough to know that their lives were going to do a 180 turn with the arrival of their child.
i have a friend, who is about to have a baby, and i will say that this experience has been ridiculously different than any other than i have had. most people that i've known to have kids, are 1. relatives or 2. friends that i've met in my adult life.
but THIS one...this one is the one i met in third grade as i sat across from the lunch table from her on her first day of school and convinced her that she was going to love the school so much, it wouldn't matter if her parents moved to AZ in 4th grade. she would want to stay here. she's the one that i consinstently saw year after year, after her family DID move, and yet we still managed to stay BEST FRIENDS throughout. She is the the one with pigtails that needed to be curled with velcro rollers everyday. she is the one i wore our atrocious catholic uniforms with. she is the one that i had matching outfits with until the age of 18. she is the one that would drop whatever she was doing to help out with things (if i had let her), when my dad was sick. she is the one that invited me to be there while her baby is being born.
there is no bittersweet sadness that will be in my heart for this one. none. i am so excited for this to happen to her and her husband, i cannot even tell you. every time i think about it, i tear up...
(there is absolutely no relavance at ALL to the picture that i posted on here, other than that kid looks exactly like me when i was little.)
Justme, just me, Jul 2009