just me

i know, also, that not everyone can drop everything for everyone. i know, that i am probably more giving/easygoing, than i need to be. how do i know this? because i find myself shocked on a daily basis that humans, some of them being my own friends, cannot give a crap enough to say, "hey, how are you doing today?" or, after i have listened to countless hours of issues from them, how it is too much for people to call or pick up the phone when i'm calling.
you may read that above statement and go, "what a brat!" but it's not that i even remotely think that someone should drop everything to talk to me, i don't. but what i do find hurtful, is that when i have called someone everyday for 3 weeks, that there is not ONE MINUTE, that they couldn't give a rip and call or TEXT back.
i give a lot to relationships and friendships, i always have. if someone i knew had a problem, i have no issue with stopping what i am doing and listening. i don't intend to change completely, but i have found myself retreating a bit. granted, maybe my life doesn't have as many ups and downs as most...it's pretty even keel, but it doesn't make it less. i don't think that i expect the same from my friends, but i do expect some level of, (if you are calling me your "closest friend"), reciprocation.
Justme, just me, Jul 2009